Today I’d like to make a quick(ish) update post about thow things are going at the moment. Everyone’s been getting used to a strange new set of circumstances when it comes to what’s happened over the last few weeks with many of us still stuck at home and no idea how long such measures will stay in place. Staying in at home has never been much of a problem for me. A natural introvert, and having sufferred from a bit of agoraphobia in my past, I always find different things to do in my free time and I’ve never had any issues or problems with spending long periods of time at home, alone. However the last few weeks has been a little more difficult than usual as my sleep pattern has been affected quite a bit by the changes.
The changes
For the past few weeks I’ve not been sleeping well, having very little sleep, insomnia, followed by periods where my energy just drops and all I want to do is sleep. No I haven’t been unwell at all (thankfully!) and despite what many may think, I am not feeling any fear or worry about what’s happening in the external world (I know, a lot of you probably think I’m weird but it’s part of my ‘stay positive’ plan). However I do consider myself a very sensitive person when it comes to the energy I feel coming from others and the energy has dramatically shifted where I live with a lot of people feeling quite negative and seeing such worry and fear in the people I care about and even though who I don’t really know online has affected me more than I realised.
I always try to spread a message of positivity and the truth is that I do believe that we will be okay and we will get through this time together and we will become a stronger, healthier and happier people once the whole lockdown stuff is over, but seeing the distrust and negativity of people when I take a walk on the street, how they avoid and look at me as if I’m a plague carrier, does make me feel sad, especially as I’m always such a happy person and try to smile at everyone I see. As my energy dipped so did my ability to read and I fell into a bit of a reading slump too.
The Slump
Having insomnia followed by bouts of feeling wiped out made reading difficult and I sort of ‘went off it’ for a while. I just couldn’t commit myself to reading a book and it wouldn’t be fair to read a book if I was forcing myself as the true emotion and feel for the story would be lost. Not reading for about three weeks did put a dent in my review schedule though, meaning I had less brand new reviews ready for my blog and I almost ran out. This made me consider slowing down my blog post schedule, something which I might do in future if I can’t keep up – and I hope you won’t mind if I do?
Despite the blip, I’m now feeling better, it’s like it took a few weeks to shake off the gloom I’d been feeling. I’ve recently felt like reading again and I’ve begun reading all the books that I’ve had on my tbr pile for a while (maybe I can actually clear the backlog🤔 😀 ?)
Staying positive
I do think it’s important for all of us to stay positive, especially at a time like this. The media is pushing such negative stories out there and regardless of what is happening, it is not healthy for us to be tuning in so often to hear such negativity. We’ve all lived through some difficult times, and just like in those times, we shall get through this and it too shall pass. But while we’re in the midst of all this, the best thing we can do for our health, and for the health of everyone else is to stay positive, do something to make you smile every day and remind yourself constantly that you are strong, and you will get through this. Let’s be kind to ourselves, look after ourselves and look after others.
Remember to be kind to those you see on the street and say hello (even if it’s at a distance) to those you might meet. We are human beings and it’s not natural for us to live in isolation for extended periods of time, we are a social creature after all and for some the need for human interaction means the different between a healthy mind and feelings of depression (and unfortunately suicide). So even a kind wave, smile or hello to a random stranger across the street can really make someone else’s day.
In the meantime I hope you won’t mind some small alterations to my usual blogging routine (different style posts at different times or a day off here and there), at least until I get back into everything properly and fully catch up. 😀
Have a lovely, positive and healthy day everyone! ❤ 🙂
How are things for you during this strange time? Have you been coping or having to live in isolation/quarantine? Have you felt fearful or scared of what’s beein happening? Let me know what you think in the comments below 🙂
If you need to change your schedule, post less, etc, do so. Not just now, with the situation making a lot of people struggle with a lot of things, but in general. Do what works best for you. It’s your blog. Plus, your health and wellbeing are most important.
I wish I was better at taking my own avice… *sigh*
Reading hasn’t been an issue for me, but it’s about the only thing I’ve not struggled with in any way. We won’t talk about my lack of writing progress until very recently. My sleep is all over the place too, but it often is. The fact the situation is causing me a lot of anxiety isn’t helping it though, and neither are the nightmares and strange dreams I’m having as a result of all the worrying I can’t help doing. I know we’ll get through this, and worrying about things isn’t going to help, or even achieve anything but stressing me out, but I can’t help doing it anyhow.
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Oh, big hug. I wish I could hug you for real, it’s horrible when our anxiety gets the better of us, even when we try our best to not let it. You are very right though, our own health and wellbeing is the most important thing and I’m sure things will get better soon. I think it’s the collective energies of other people that us sensitive souls can sometimes tap into which makes us feel horrible, I hope you feel better soon and I also hope we both stop worrying so much, I’m guilty of it too despite trying my best not too, lol.
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Sorry to hear you have been in a reading slump and have had insomnia etc. These are difficult times even for people who prefer to stay in – it’s having the choice to stay in or go out taken away which is dispiriting. Also I think most of us are having too much screen time and that can cause trouble switching off. Post less if you need to and don’t feel you have to get through all those books quickly, no one will mind if you take your time 🙂 And you can also do mini reviews if you want to keep the workload more manageable.
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Thank you ❤ ❤ 🙂 You're right I'm not actually being pressured by anyone to hurry with the reviews so I've decided to leave some older ones that I'm just copying from an old blog in place of where new ones should be on some days. 🙂
You're also right, it's that choice to be able to go out taken away that's got me feeling bad. It's not just the whole virus issue but the fact that so many people I think are panicking to the point of madness and acting in such strange ways, at least where I live. I've literally had people walk into a tree and a lampost they are so keen to keep the social distancing that they are hurting themselves in the process. Having so many people at home too I think can cause a bit of pressure, especially as I can constantly hear my neighbours now (they're very loud and love spending all day in the garden) and I'm used to it being much quieter where I live. 🙂 Thankfully though I'm feeling better afte taking time away from social media this week.
I hope the whole event hasn't been too stressful on you or your family? ❤
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My neighbours are annoying too… all seem to be doing noisy things in the garden and playing horrible music outside (why do people with the worst music taste play it loudest?!) but I guess people are getting annoyed by my kids too as they can be noisy! I think some people are being a little extreme on the social distancing, not seen anyone walk into a tree yet?! Glad you are feeling better. This has been very stressful, I can’t deny, but trying not to complain as it could be a lot worse.
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It’s definitely a situation non of us have ever been in before 🙂 Wishing you and your family good health and happiness 🙂
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And for you 🙂
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Sorry to hear that you’ve been so exhausted, I am in awe of your ability to blog at all under the circumstances. You must do what is right for you and set your own agenda. I am sure that your readers will be happy to hear from you whenever you are ready to post, I know that I shall. Take care of yourself and keep smiling. We are all dealing with this in different ways and we must be kind to ourselves and to others. 😊
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Thank you so much ❤ ❤ 🙂 You are right, taking care of ourselves is so important, especially when all this is happening. It's definitely a strange set of circumstances everyone's under, we've never really faced something like this before. I'm feeling a bit better after taking some time away from social media and the internet in general for the last week. It's definitely helped 🙂 I hope you and your family are coping during this time? ❤
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Hi, I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better. My family are all well thanks. I’ve been off the blog and social media because I’m snowed under with online school duties and also trying to finish up a university assignment that has to be submitted next week. I hope that I might find some time after that to read a few books from my towering TBR stack! Stay well, and don’t put any pressure on yourself.
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I’m sorry you’ve been feeling out of sorts, my friend. Even when you try and avoid a lot of the noise and stress about this pandemic, it still finds its way in…like you said… via other people and their fears and worries.
I think staying positive is one of the best ways to be and I commend you for that. I have distanced myself from some social media and even some family members who wanted nothing more than to go on and on about what is happening and always focusing on the fear and panic.
I prefer to look at all the awesome people who are helping each other, supporting and sharing, all those trying new things and getting excited about projects!
I am glad you are feeling better, do take care of yourself. Blessings, Ari
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Thank you so much Ari ❤ You're right, it's the panic and fear of so many others, I've had the same experience with so many friends and family members just going on and on about it. One member of my family was already someone who always saw the worst in every situation, who always thought any minor health ailment meant that they were gong to die, so imagine how this person is going on about this now! The media isn't helping either, I've taken myself away from the social media for the rest of this week and it's definitely helped a lot. I'm feeling better, even though my sleep is still not good, but definitely better when not engaging in everyone's fears.
Thank you for visiting and your kind words and I'll get back to you via email very soon ❤ ❤ 🙂
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I think stepping away from social media can be the most beneficial. I rarely look through my timeline currently and just reply to things I’m mentioned in – which is mostly TMW game.
I saw your email, thanks hun. I’ll reply soon 🙂
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