Hello everyone and I hope you are all well today and are having a good Monday. Here in the UK it’s a bit of a special day as many places that have been closed for months are now reopening and life is, hopefully, getting back to normal. Unfortunately I haven’t posted much last week at all and haven’t been around a lot in the last two+ weeks thanks to some pretty severe health issues. I’ll talk more of that in a later post, I’ve briefly mentioned some problems but it might be something that needs its own blog post to talk about, but for now I wanted to share a poem that has come into my head as a result of how I’ve been feeling recently.
The pandemic issue has really had a negative effect on me, more so than I first thought and it’s resulted in some bad health problems too. 😦 As a result I often get out my frustrations and negative thoughts on paper in the form of poetry. It doesn’t always make sense and this particular one doesn’t, I think, have the best rhyming rhythm but I like to post all the poetry I write so here it is. I still hope you like it, whether it’s meaningful words to you or just nonsense, heck, I’d be happy if you just like the fact it rhymes. 🙂 Have a lovely Monday everyone and I hope you enjoy the poem! 🙂 ❤
A Life Divided
©The Strawberry Post
Living life divided,
Always one of two,
Living life abided,
Don’t know what to do.
One side always knowing,
While other always lies,
One side always growing,
As the other one hides.
Living to be both,
But slowing losing mind,
Learning to be loath,
As pretend to be blind.
Seeing either side,
Assuming to agree,
Seeing either’s lie,
Unable to be free.
Living to survive,
A world that was once fine.
Living an archive,
Future no longer benign.
Afraid to break out,
To face the conflict.
Afraid to stand, shout,
At those who restrict.
Need to make the choice,
To throw away the fear.
Need to use the voice,
To make my truth clear.
Living life divided,
Deciding to be me,
Living life abided,
Ready to live free.
What do you think of this poem? Do you feel like your life is divided? Let me know what you think in the comments below 🙂
The Strawberry Post 
You are very talented. I can related to what you describe. I used to suffer much more with it in the past. Choosing the side that is more truthful to us is not easy but it prevents us from feeding the conflict between the conscious and the unconscious x
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Aw, thank you for such kind words ❤ That is exactly how I've felt when writing the poem, it's not easy to always go with the side of truth and follow the path you know you should, especially when it feels like separating from som many others but I know it's the right path. 🙂 ❤
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Well done, really thoughtful poem. All the best for your health ♥
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Thank you ❤ 🙂
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I am so sorry you haven’t been at all well recently. I do hope you feel better soon xx Last spring and summer I was told to shield, so I did as I was told and thought I could cope with staying at home all the time. As I mentioned to you before, I became quite unwell and I know it was because I wasn’t doing all the jobs I feel are my own; other people were doing them for me. I felt guilty that other people had extra chores because of me and I was irritated because I do these jobs well and the people taking over my chores weren’t doing them as well as I do! I think I’d be a dreadful invalid, constantly nagging people to hoover under the furniture and telling them to only buy certain brands of tea and coffee! When I was told to shield again at Christmas I decided I wouldn’t. I was very careful but continued to help Mum and went out and did her and my shopping myself. I felt so much better! These lockdowns are so bad for us mentally and physically. Your poem is good. It describes all the mixed emotions that we feel when we are told to do something that is alien to our nature but we know might help the country as a whole. We have become even more nervous and insecure than we ever were before.
Take care, Cat ❤ ❤
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Thank you ❤ That couldn't have been an easy decision but it sounds like you did the right thing for both your family and your own health. It's true, the lockdowns and constant negative news about this situation hasn't helped people's mental and physical health and I often think that there isn't a one-fit solution to this. We can't just choose one action for all people as we've seen it can affect other health problems and the lockdowns and people not going out has led to worsening health, both physically and mentally for so many. 😦 I've found my own health has gone quite downhill since the clinics have shut and my GP's nurses are just not experienced enough to deal with such complicated diabetic and other issues that I have.
All I can hope is that as we move forward people will remember what things were like before and try to return to some of that normality. It's important that we remember and value the health and wellbeing of everyone. There's been a lot of hate out there, especially on social media over this whole issue so I also hope the world becomes more compassionate towards each other as I feel that's been lost a bit in the last year with everyone fearing everyone else.
Thank you for commenting and I hope you and your family stay well and healthy and that everyday is wonderful, it's been far more sunny and warm where I live lately which is lovely, I hope it is in Suffolk ❤ 🙂
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My pleasure, Cat xx We haven’t had any warm weather yet and I’m still wearing my winter clothes. However, we are promised some warmer weather by the end of the week. Fingers crossed! Take care xx ❤ ❤
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I hope the weather will warm up where you are. Don’t worry about the winter thing, as soon as I said it has been warmer I’ve resorted to putting blankets around me as it got so much colder in the last week, lol.
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I think it is warming up at last! The skies cleared this afternoon and the sunshine was glorious! ❤ ❤
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I hope you’re seeing some improvement in your health.
I love the poem, and not only because it rhymes. 😉 Sometimes those rougher poems are best, because they show the true raw emotions behind them. I think this may be one of those times.
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Thank you so much for your lovely words ❤ Yes, I'm hoping my health is on the mend now, although it's been quite a difficult time recently, something that I wasn't expecting but a good source for the rough poetry 🙂
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